RELEASE

Maybe I am wrong but aren't you responsible of it. Why can't you just say that you mind. Do you know that your words make me feel that you dun care for me.

Do you know that how I wish to hear you saying you mind, you are jealous, you dun wanna share. Now, you said that. But why I have the feeling that we will be quarrelling over this. Are we going to quarrel?

Ya, everyone has their limit, I know that. You have yours, I have mine. But since you can say that you dun mind, then it also prove that I can continue being myself, continue to be close with boys, isn't it? You are the one who allowed me eventually.

I dunno, I never understand you. Sometimes, I feel that you are close to me, but sometimes you seems like a stranger, worst than a friend. Sometimes, you care a lot for me but sometimes you dun heck care how will I feel. I am not a toy, take it when you want it, neglect it when it's not needed.

I am challenging something, that's right. But have you ever thought why am I doing that. I just wanna see whether do you care for me. I need the sense of secure, but I dun have it.

You said that try is good but if too over eventually you would lose something. It's true. But are you telling me that I may lose you because of this? Is this what you are hinting?

You know the reason why I can be so close with boys? Because sometimes, they take the initiative to get close with me. They obviously let me know that they care for me. I dun have to be the one who take action, they will do it automatically. They always have time to chat with me. How about you? Did you think of this before?

It's my fault, I am too over. Satisfied? Ok? I am always the wrong who do everything in a wrong way. I really need some time to think about what can or should I do.

This is the second time I cried over this matter. First time was your friends, and now is you personally. Maybe I have to face this problem, no more avoiding.

Wednesday, we will have a talk. Face to face. Heartfelt words.

I really hope that we will be fine.